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Non Gaming Discussions => Off-Topic => Topic started by: Living-In-Clip on July 22, 2010, 09:20:10 AM
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As most of you know, I had some great news recently. A new baby boy was born earlier last month. Sadly , it seems all good news brings along bad news.
I\'m dying. I\'ve been diagnosed with brain cancer. I\'ve dealt with chronic headaches for last few months and after plenty of tests, turns out I have cancerous tumors. It\'s too far along and they are in spots to which can\'t be removed.
Not sure why I\'m telling you guys. But then again I have been on this forum since I was 15. Had to tell someone.
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WHAT THE FUCK?
Is this a joke?
You better be joking.
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I wish dude. I have three beautiful children. I wouldn\'t joke about this. Not to mention both my parents have dealt with cancer. Just let this serve as a reminder how fleeting life can be. I\'ll be lucky to see my son turn a year old. I haven\'t broke down yet - just seems to surreal. Wife is taking it hard, so I\'m trying to stay strong for her.
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Oh man.
I\'m really sorry to hear this. I feel bad for your wife. For you. Your kids. And I\'m sorry for being a jackass to you. Even though you were too. :)
Ah shit. My prayers for you and your family, man. I don\'t know what to say.
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That is the worst news someone can be dealt, and I cannot even fathom what you are about to endure. Not that this needs to be said, but cherish every second with your loved ones.
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I was just perusing through your flickr photos. Your daughters are just old enough to feel the pain they will have to endure. I was hoping they were still quite young, like 2 or 3.
I used to to be a praying man a few years ago. I think I\'m going to get back on that again. I\'ll pray for a miracle, man.
BTW...what\'s your real name?
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shit, thats horrible. life doesnt get much more unfair than the cards you were dealt, so I\'ll be thinking a lot about you and your family, hoping you guys get the strength from wherever to cope.
im sorry man..
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My girls will be five Dec 20th. The wife and I willl be married a year on Nov 3rd.
Brandon is my name, btw.
No need to apologize for the past. It was all in good fun. Just like Souly is still a woodchip currency douche!
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wow, this sucks
I\'m not sure what to say... I feel really bad for wishing you dead in that holocaust thread back then, that\'s for sure...
Try to enjoy the time you\'ve got left to the fullest
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Oh... I call dibs on his games collection!
*hopes LIC can still appreciate the joke*
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This news is mind boggling.. When did it all start with the headaches? Have you had like no reason to go to the doctor until recently? Are they not going to try any treatments at all? I have 50 other questions, but I\'m sure you\'ve been dealing with plenty.....
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By the way, if there was ever a time to write in the journals.. this would be it...
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Not fair. why?
that is truly heartbreaking, man. I don\'t even know what else to say. I\'m so sorry.
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Honestly, a big portion my fault. I haven\'t been going to a doctor since I was little. I\'ve dealt with headaches/ lack of energy / weight loss for awhile now and I just thought it was sinuse and fatigue of having three children. I didn\'t go to the doctor until it was to the point that one day I was in bed cryin from pain on my left side of my brain. And my wife took me to the Er because she was scared it was a tumor or something serious. Sadly, the Er saw my history of sinus problems, didn\'t do a CtScan and nisdiganoisdd me , and so I continued on again. It wasn\'t until months later when it happened again an another doctor ran tests that I found out. And no, I\'m not suing the first doctor ( everyone says to).
As for treatment, radiation was suggested but they were very upfront about my chances. Slim to none.
Journal , well haven\'t started one. I have started work on individual letters to those I love the most. It\'s rough though, sitting down and writing your final words to someone. Because no matter what, I can\'t say enough.
Oh and the game collection? Sold. I sold most of it when i was going thru a custody case for my twins. Sorry! :)
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Let me say this. I\'m not asking for a pity party. I lived a good life, sure not as long as I wanted, but a good one. I got to see three amazing kids be brought into this world. Married a beautiful wife ( go on, check my album. She\'s hot).
When my daughte had her medical problems last year, I spent a lot of time at the childrens medial ward and let me tell you. That\'s not fair. That\'s heartbreaking. I seen a girl with brain tumors and she had surgery after surgery and still not a good outlook. The girl had to be eight or nine, bald with staples all over head. Medicated to the point she could barely get around. That\'s not fair. At least I\'m grown and can deal with the emotions that come with this. That girl stuck with me since those days. Not to mention, my own daughter and her pain. A four year old screaming in pain, four surgeries and she didn\'t even know why. Heartbreaking.
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I can\'t believe this....LIC, i\'ve always regarded you as one of the coolest members in here...reading this up to this point, i can\'t help from keepin\' my eyes from waterin\' up. You have a beautiful family man.
I\'m going to pray hard that something comes thru for you.....i\'m not writing you off yet, as long as you\'re here, there\'s got to be a chance to stop it....s**t man..i\'m really at a loss for words....i really feel helpless and honestly wish there was something i could do...i have kids too and i can only imagine what you\'re going thru.....please bro get a 4th and 5th opinion on your situation...i\'m praying for U.
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If I were you I would blog to your hearts content. Day to day... What you are thinking. What you are living. Pour it all out. If anything it will be good for you to get it out and it will be a great thing for your kids to read when they get older.
Absolutely get a second and a third opinion. Crazy not to. And to not get radiation or try to fight it at all isn\'t fair to your wife. I mean unless of course it\'s metastasized elsewhere.
You must do something. Must stay strong. We\'ll be here to tell you to get that dick out of your ass. You know GMan will.
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Prayers for you, Brandon.
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LIC, I\'m sad, and I\'m feeling bad, really bad. I\'m speechless. now I don\'t know what to say, just know I\'m with you.
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sorry for the bad news. I never know what to say when things like this come about. I just hope it happens like switching out a light and not a painful lingering experience.
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Just terrible, hope you can be happy and enjoy whatever time you have left.
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Jesus man......I\'m sorry to hear that. Like the others, don\'t really know what to say. As Vid said, get a second opinion. You never know what one doctor might catch that the others didn\'t. Hopefully they can give you some good news. You should try whatever you can. You\'ll be in my prayers.
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Holy shit dude. I can\'t believe what I\'m reading. Just shocked looking at the computer screen. I\'m off the boards for a week and can\'t believe this. I\'m at a loss for words on what to say. My thoughts are with you and your wife and your children. I\'ve always enjoyed reading your posts over the years and seeing how you grew as a person. Who would have thought LIC from 10 years ago would be LIC today, family man. lol. I have mad respect for you man. I wish you the best of luck and I will keep you in my thoughts. You have to try and fight this man. Stay strong!
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Thanks for all the thoughts. And yeah, sometimes when I\'m bored I read my posts from ten years ago and realize just how much life changes us all.
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My girls will be five Dec 20th. The wife and I willl be married a year on Nov 3rd.
Brandon is my name, btw.
No need to apologize for the past. It was all in good fun. Just like Souly is still a woodchip currency douche!
couldn\'t have happened to a nicer ass!
no, sorry to hear it man. Life can be creul, i nearly had hotchkins cancer when i was 18. Scary as hell to go through. Don\'t roll over and take it, Do everything in your power to fight it. Any extra time is good time and your family i\'m sure will want you around as long as possible too.
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Holy shit, I\'m shocked.... the last time I was this shocked an old co-worker and a pretty good buddy of mine told me he was having a sex change... that was just weird, this on the other hand is terrible
My thoughts are with you and your family, I can\'t even begin to imagine what you\'re going through.
Stuff like this makes you think, I\'ve known you and most of the guys here for a decade, that\'s a long time... especially in internet years. I\'m lucky to have gotten to know you man.
I\'m honestly speechless, my heart truly goes out to you and your family...
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Thanks for all the thoughts. And yeah, sometimes when I\'m bored I read my posts from ten years ago and realize just how much life changes us all.
Its funny how we\'ve all changed looking back on posts from 10 years ago. Everyone\'s little troubles and tribulations. Past members. The crap we have given each other. Seeing all the regulars grow. Hard to believe its been 10 years already. Been on this board for a little less than half my life (I\'m 23 now). Its like we have a little family here.
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LIC I felt my heart sink to my stomach when I read the first couple of posts in this thread. Even though I haven\'t met you in person I get this overwhelming feeling that this shouldn\'t happen to anyone. Sorry for all the stress & concern that\'s going on with your loved ones. You\'re a great family man, as well as a valued member here, and we all have memories going back & forth with the infamous LIC.
Love, happiness, and even death is a part of life and everyone will be there someday, please don\'t feel you are alone. I\'ll keep you in my prayers (whether you like it or not :P). If there\'s anything we can do please feel free to reach out to us.
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Jesus Christ.
I decided one day to check this forum and I see this.
God damn it.
You were an ass with me, I have never met you in person but still this news are shocking and deeply sadden me. Its one of those moments I hope you are being an ass again with this thread so it wont be true
I dont know what to say
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Damn dude, that is terrible. Speaking from personal experience my dad had a brain tumor the size of a grapefruit removed last summer. Luckily it wasn\'t cancerous but going through all of that is truely a test to ones sanity.
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:(
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Jesus Christ.
I decided one day to check this forum and I see this.
God damn it.
You were an ass with me, I have never met you in person but still this news are shocking and deeply sadden me. Its one of those moments I hope you are being an ass again with this thread so it wont be true
I dont know what to say
I remember you and LIC fighting about RE4-5 being or not being a survival horror game anymore...and though they are still survival horror, I miss a lot the atmosphere of RE1, the best for me, and loved the remake on GC, fantastic.
LIC, go to other doctors, listen to other doctors.
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That is some tragically shitty news man. I’ll echo Souly’s words and say that while you prepare for the worst, don’t resign yourself to it. Where there is life there is hope. I’ve been witness to miracles, both medical and mystical, throughout my lifetime (I’m 55) and feel conviction that one way or another you Brandon will be among them. So in other words as THX put it, whether you like it or not I’ll be praying for you.
[WA@L] OtOH, if you want to fuck up a perfectly good track record of my prayers being answered and die out of spite just to try and prove faith is groundless well then more power to you [/weak attempt @ levity]
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[WA@L] OtOH, if you want to fuck up a perfectly good track record of my prayers being answered and die out of spite just to try and prove faith is groundless well then more power to you [/weak attempt @ levity]
wut?
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wut?
An attempt at humor
failed
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In other words what he prays for comes true.
Oof.. Always have to explain shit to the dutch. Must be the shitty shoes....
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Thanks for all the warm wishes an I will be getting another opinion. I had surgery yesterday, but not for the cancer. I broke my ankle and had to have three screws and a plate put in to hold it together. So, yeah I\'m in perfect shape! :)
Was plannin on catching up on m portable gaming , but my brother in law broke my psp screen and my sister in law broke my top Ds screen. Gotta replace both of those now. Such is my luck! Lol
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Yeah, man...definitely get that second or third opinion...and we\'ll try to keep this forum a place you can still come to and catch a laugh or two and keep your spirits up...:fro:
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You better live. I don\'t want any hauntings. Go mess with Unicron should you be a nasty ghost. 8^) And you get to see all the hot chicks naked.
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I\'m finding it hard to stay motivated and positive now that I\'m forced to lay around. I broke my ankle at work 14 weeks ago and just had surgery on it Monday. Having to sit around gives me too much time to think. I didn\'t even get out of bed today until 7:00 pm. The roughest days are the days when my girls are at their mothers - I get them four / five days a week. Today they weren\'t here , so it was just very depressing. The wife and son are great company, but I feel bad for her. Takes care of our son, the house and is going back to work. Last thing she needs is to take care of me. So I just laid upstairs in the room all day. They\'re asleep now, I\'m awake. Wish I wasn\'t.
Thanks for letting me rant guys. Big help.
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Go out to the back of your house and plant a tree. I dunno. At least it\'s symbolic or something.
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Until someone cuts it down.
:-)
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I\'m finding it hard to stay motivated and positive now that I\'m forced to lay around. I broke my ankle at work 14 weeks ago and just had surgery on it Monday. Having to sit around gives me too much time to think. I didn\'t even get out of bed today until 7:00 pm. The roughest days are the days when my girls are at their mothers - I get them four / five days a week. Today they weren\'t here , so it was just very depressing. The wife and son are great company, but I feel bad for her. Takes care of our son, the house and is going back to work. Last thing she needs is to take care of me. So I just laid upstairs in the room all day. They\'re asleep now, I\'m awake. Wish I wasn\'t.
Thanks for letting me rant guys. Big help.
I can imagine sitting around thinking can be a lot to handle. Obviously staying busy is the best thing to get your mind off of everything. Have you thought about making a list of things you\'ve always wanted to do, whether its with your family or yourself or whatever and do them? Just to get yourself out and active. Can\'t imagine staying put is gonna be healthy for your body and psyche.
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I have been on this site for 10 years now. Seems like you get to know people from posting so much on this board. Sad to really hear something like this happen to you my friend LIC.
My sister had brain surgery two years ago. She out of the blue got a tumor and she was only 25. She had succesful surgery to remove and they tell her it has not signs of the tumor ever coming back but she has to a check up once a year.
Man best wishes to you.
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DON\'T YOU FUCKING DIE!
That\'s all I got to say.
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LIC -
Despite some of my comments over the years, I think you are a stand up guy - no one should ever have to go through this.
Keep fighting it.
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How are you feeling today, Brandon?
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The irony is, the thing beating me is my broken ankle. I\'m not use to sitting around and not being able to do not a lot. If it doesn\'t start healing by Sept 7th, I\'ll have another surgery, this time a bone graph.
This whole thing is taking a toll on my marriage. My wife and I had a huge fight, she packet and said she was leaving. She came back later that night tho\'. She says that with everything I\'ve became overly negative and by doing so , I\'m making it harder on her and the kids. Honestly , she\'s right. I find myself sitting most days without much to say and I don\'t have s lot of energy , so given the chance I just stay in bed and sleep. But, I\'m trying to fix that. I\'d hate to ruin and lose this time ....
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LIC,....i know it\'s hard to stay positive and i think i already have the situation fleshed out,...she\'s taking care of the kids while you\'re basically immobile letting your ankle heal, not to mention your other situation...and i know taking care of kids can be alot, especially small kids, but just try not to let this situation ruin your life and your family.
I know it\'s easier said than done....and you already know how much attention newborns need...it\'s a 24/7 cycle....so if you\'re bein\' a bit irritated (and i don\'t blame you) just try not to take it out on the one\'s that love you. On the flip side i think the wifey can be a wee bit more understanding.....everybody argues, tru-enough, but to say that she\'s going to leave (and i understand that she\'s takin\' care of the kids, which as i mentioned is a job in itself)....in your time of need..is a bit harsh.
Just continue to take this journey with your family and maybe sit down with the wifey and just let her know how much you appreciate her takin\' care of things, but that just to understand that sometimes every now and then frustration builds up and that maybe you indirectly take it out on them....i know i\'m on the outside lookin\' in, but that\'s how i see it....just continue to push forward and stay strong...we\'re not gonna forget about you...:fro:
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I\'m doing most the kid work. She works 12+ hours a day, five days a week. I don\'t blame her for threatening , it\'s what I needed. I am positive she done it to give me a wake up call on how I\'ve been acting. It\'s hard enough for my family without me being negative about every single thing.
I\'m hoping my ankle heals. I\'ll find out on Sept 7th. If so, I plan on going back to work as long as I can. If it doesn\'t heal, they will do a bone graph and I\'ll be immobile for another four + months. That\'s no way to spend your time, time that just gives you too much time to think.
On the plus side, the wife surprised me with Dish HD for football season! I\'ve had this 63 inch Damsung LED DLp for two years and no HD TV. :-(
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^^^Oh ok...i had it all wrong then....as long as you know what the problem was, and are takin\' steps to rectify it, it\'s all good....and congrats on the dish hd...football season for you is gonna be off the chain!!...:fro:...go cowboys!!!..:stirthepot:...bwhaha!!
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Cowboys? They suck. Root for the Steelers! :D
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:(
So sad to hear such news...
You\'ll always be one of my favorite assholes here...
...though you haven\'t been much of an asshole, in a while.
:)
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Unbelievable..
You still get brought up in conversation in my real life whenever I talk about PC\'s or my own computer. Its always a "yeah my friends on the net helped me build this thing"
I honestly don\'t even know what to say. Your one of my favorite people here.