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Off-Topic / Re: Starting a new job next week

« Last post by Jumpman on February 06, 2026, 03:32:53 PM »

Fuck yeah dude! What kind of insurance?

Home and auto insurance in a specific market.

Shit is complicated bro. I had to pass a 2nd all important test and I placed in the highest grade. For someone who took 2 extra years of high school and dropped out 2nd year of university, passing an exam means the world to me.

But I think I mentioned that in my previous training class so it's a repeat of "I have no idea what I'm doing now but I will when it matters".

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Off-Topic / Re: Launched my website a couple weeks ago

« Last post by Paul2 on January 21, 2026, 06:52:07 PM »

that sucks that you still have depression.  if its go away completely for good in the future.  maybe you should stop taking it so you don't have to worry about a very small chance of getting side effect and having to remember to take it every day.

i have a mild case of social anxiety disorder, paranoia, pervert disorder, and narcissm disorder though because of the very strong ear pulled when i was a kid by another kid.  eventually i had surgery remove from the head scar on my upper left side of my head to get rid of the pain and anger of where the scar was.  the kid that bullied me when i was a kid pulled my left ear so hard that the left side of my head stretched out and i got a scar there on the upper left side of my head that gave me a stroke on where the scar was.

removing it completely rid of the pain and anger.  i had 3 surgeries to remove the scar completely.  he didn't surgically remove the scar completely on the first 2 surgeries.  on the 3rd surgeries i had, i think he over remove the scar that he probably remove the scalp that has hair on it too.  because of a misunderstanding.  he over removed the scar and a little of the scalp on my head too.  then 3 days later after the surgery, my nephew touched the scar that has stitches on it and the pain come back somewhat.  and whenever i have pain on where the scar is and any pain on my head, i got angry easily.  but overall, its much, much better than not getting surgery to get rid of the scar at all which got rid of the stroke that i had.

i also got a lump on the left temple of my face too because of the left ear pulled that gave me pervert and narccism order.  like over 14 years later after the ear pulled, i acupunctured the lump on my left temple by myself and discovered it rid of my narcissm disorder.  it took 5 days to see results.  like 2 or 3 weeks later, the lump grew back and the narcissm came back too but the narcissm is a bit less severe though.  then a little over 4 years later, i acupunctured my left temple again and this time i paid attention to see if it also rid of my pervert disorder too and it did rid of it completely.  its also took 5 days to see result.  again, about 2 to 3 weeks later, the lump on my left temple grew back and pervert and narcissm disorders come back too.  but overall it rid of the pervert disorder a little bit though i think.

oh yeah, the lump on my left temple also gives me mild social anxiety disorder and paranoia too.  acupuncture it reduces my mild s.a.d. (social anxiety disorder) and paranoia a lot but like 3 weeks later when the lump grew back.  the s.a.d. and paranoia come back too.  overall it's a bit less severe compare to before the acupuncture.  i think i need like a surgery to remove the stretch out skin on my left temple and stitches the skin together to get rid of the lump so in hoping to rid all the mental disorders i had but i am kind of worry to do it.  i am afraid the surgeon might not give me a proper surgery.

the medication zyprexa i take also reduce my s.a.d. and paranoia but not completely though.  it also reduces my pervert disorder a little to somewhat too.  narcissm is still somewhat the same though.  2 nights ago, i can feel the medication works where i can feel it repair brain cells on the scalp of both sides of my head.  the good news is my s.a.d. and paranoia disorder is somewhat reduce.  the bad news is that its not completely gone though.  hopefully one day, the medication rid of it completely.

i remember over 3 years ago my previous psychiatrist prescript me escitalopram because i told him i have social anxiety disorder.  maybe because i didn't know what s.a.d. called in vietnamese, he probably though i get scare around people which is also the case.  anyway, the medication escitalopram that he prescript me gave me a very mild to mild pedophilia's disorder i think.  it took like 2 to 3 weeks taking it to get that disorder.  i didn't realize that was the case until another month or 2 later to realize that.  the cool thing is, the psychiatrist off that med for me when i talked him on the phone again on the day i had appointment with him even though i didn't tell him that it gave me mild pedeophile disorder.

then about another year and half later, in around mid 2024, he prescript me trazodone to help with my sleep because of the sleep problems i have.  like some days, i sleep okay, and then some days, i couldn't sleep at all or not enough that another some days later, i oversleep to make up for it.  because i told him that, he prescript me trazodone and like another month pass iirc, i still have sleep problems, and he double the strength of trazodone, and i still have sleep problems.  so like another month after that, i told him i still have sleep problem, that he up the dose 3 times from the 2 times that he already increased it which total 6 times the strength of the normal dose he gave me 2 months prior.

late that night, about half an hour later after i took that strength of med, i start having a mild heart attack on and off.  i regret taking this med and at this strength.  the mild heart attack didn't go away completely until sometimes in the morning maybe 6 or 7 a.m. is where it went away completely.  i texted him that, and not long later, he called me on the phone, he said he will off this med and prescript me a different med.  i said i don't want to take any other meds except zyprexa because of their side effects.  he said he can't do that because i have sleep problems and if i don't take med for it then he will close the file on me and i don't have to see him anymore and told me to see a different psychiatrist which thanks to my mom's help i did see a different psychiatrist.

i learned that the hard way, no matter what, i will take zyprexa only and no other medications since august 2024 because of their side effects.  not only other meds don't help but it give me unwanted side effects except zyprexa.

around may 8 of 2025, i think the very mild to mild pedeophile disorder is gone completely i think.  again, escitalopram doesn't reduce or rid of my s.a.d. but it gave me a mild pedeophile disorder that can get me in trouble.

so far, i been doing pretty good especially the zyprexa seems to help me somewhat with my s.a.d. and paranoia lately.  its also reduces my pervert disorder somewhat too i think.

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Off-Topic / Re: Launched my website a couple weeks ago

« Last post by Titan on January 21, 2026, 05:28:45 PM »

Yeah. I was pretty depressed during he pandemic. Worst mental state I was in in a very long time. And yeah, I still take escitalopram. I was thinking about coming off of it but then I realized my periodic depression hasn't come back. Basically once in a while I'd get really depressed for no reason every couple months for like a period of a week and it'd go away. Since I've been on SSRIs, I haven't had that come back. So that's a nice bonus lol.

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Off-Topic / Re: Launched my website a couple weeks ago

« Last post by Paul2 on January 17, 2026, 08:06:04 PM »

oh i see.  cool.

oh yeah, re-reading again on your first post of this thread.  i remember you said you got into depression possibly because of the pandemic.  has it gone away completely yet?  i remember you said you took meds because of it.  do you no longer take meds anymore if you are doing much better since if your depression is gone like completely or not?  hope that you are doing well and your business goes well.

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Off-Topic / Re: Launched my website a couple weeks ago

« Last post by Titan on January 17, 2026, 06:59:38 PM »

They were pictures I took for eBay listings. I use a website called Canva for all my image editing. It's cheaper, quicker and easier for what I do than Photoshop.

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Off-Topic / Re: Launched my website a couple weeks ago

« Last post by Paul2 on January 16, 2026, 05:03:24 PM »

looking good.  did you took pictures of those consoles and edited them on the refurbished and repairs page?  the pictures look really good.

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Off-Topic / Launched my website a couple weeks ago

« Last post by Titan on January 16, 2026, 03:39:48 PM »

Haha. I read this quote from a post I made. This didn't age well.....

Sorry I haven't been around much. Been crazy the last couple months between my ebay business, my YouTube channel and now I've gotten a new job. It's part time but it's my foot in the door. I accepted a job as a carpenter's apprentice. I needed to get out of the corporate world because it sucks like a mother fucker. That and being home all the time unemployed was weighing heavily on my mental health. It's a lot of fun. I split my time between the shop and on the job site. And my boss is mega cool and teaching me everything I need to know about construction. So far I can see myself doing this for a living. We'll see where this goes but I know I'm on the right path.

5 years later, fuck that shit lol. I've been working for an apartment complex since and I really don't care for construction anymore. I'm glad I've spent the last few years in it because it gave me some vital DIY skills that will come in handy when my wife and I buy a house and when we rent out our condo we live in currently now. Anyway, I'm getting a bit off topic.

I got into YouTube during the pandemic as a way for me to keep sane while I was unemployed. I fixed consoles and sold them on ebay and recorded the process. For like 3 years or so I did it as a hobby. Some years only a few videos went up because I was focusing on my construction career. But when I got my channel monetized, something flipped. I thought long and hard about what I wanted in life. I knew I wanted my own business. It was actually one thing I was planning with construction. But I also went to college for film. Granted, when I went to college, social media and YouTube were still in their infancy and making a living off of it just wasn't a thing then. But the skills I learned there I carried with me through life, especially in my former life as a photographer. I really enjoyed YouTube and creating videos. I really enjoyed fixing up consoles and selling them. There is a market for refurbished consoles and for people to repair retro consoles. I think in the last couple years I've been working on developing the business idea and improving my channel, I have a good business model with multiple revenue streams. It's as if all my skills came full circle here to this point.

About a year ago I did a full rebrand of my channel. Then over the next few months I worked with a friend on having them make my website. I sat on it for a few months while I filed the paperwork for my LLC and did the final touches to get my business in order. Then I decided January 1, it was time to make it official. So anyway, here's my website! I'll be adding physical products in time but for now I'm just offering repair services.

https://www.titanrepairs.co

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Happy Birthday board / Re: Happy Late 2025 Birthday Kurt Angle

« Last post by Paul2 on January 15, 2026, 06:39:24 PM »

thanks for welcoming me back.

Sounds like a good birthday party there.

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Off-Topic / Re: Got a new job!

« Last post by Paul2 on January 15, 2026, 02:25:57 PM »

(continued)

if i remember correctly, there are some rare moments probably around last year of 2025 after january 29, 2025, like every few days to few weeks to few months where i thought that i might still not masturbate the right way because the white spots on my dick still didn't go away completely and much at all but when i think and remember about that i usually pee in 1 stream of urine instead of 2 reassured me that i mostly masturbate the right way.

around early 2025 to now mid january 2026, i didn't masturbate much.  usually, i go as long as 9 days without masturbating, and on average maybe around 3 to 5 days of not masturbating in hoping to get rid of the white spots in my penis.  what i am trying to say is, by far masturbating the right way should dissolve the spots in my dick and 2nd important thing is i think is to masturbate less often so in hoping rid of the bacteria infections in my dick sooner.  i even tried laying down in bed naked for like at least 1 hour and sometimes i lay down longer than that, as long as several hours long on some to many days during the summer of 2025 with the electric fan on blowing where i was laying down in hoping to get rid of the bacteria infection in my private area faster.

i also tried shaving my private area with razorblade every few months like every 3 to 4 months to expose my penis to air so it won't cover my penis with hair around my penis in hoping to get rid of the bacteria infection on my penis.  i even tried plucking hair mostly on my penis area during that time so air can get around and in my penis to get rid of the bacteria infection.  but the white spots on my dick didn't go away completely.  sometimes, it look like it dissolved, and grow back a little.

its not until late 2025, maybe october or november 2025, i can't remember that well, i try to twisted my right fist the other way like counter clockwise so in hoping to correct grip of my right hand holding my penis whenever i masturbate to make it masturbate more correctly this time so i won't pee in 2 streams of urine at all anymore.  because i remember back in late 1999, probably late october to early november 1999, i got bullied in class in school, and this student boy wanted to beat me and i fight back badly, the teacher called the securities is what i think they are called.  the boy quickly left so he won't get in trouble after he tried to attack me by pushing my head down.

so 2 securities came, and they asked me to follow them to the office but i didn't go if i remember correctly, so each of the 2 securities guy grab one of my fists, one on each side and made me walk out the classroom to go to the office.  one of the 2 securities guy, the security guy on my right side bend my right fist inward with his hands as he made me walk out the classroom.  he bending my right fist inward hard and held it bent as he made me walk out the classroom like that hurt my wrist and fist.  as each seconds went back, the pain got worse and worse that i told him to let go of my right hand but he ignored me.  so i used my left hand and the security guy on my left side let go of my left hand and i used my left hand to pushed the hands off the security guy on the right side who was bending and holding my right fist.

he still didn't let go off my right fist so i scratched one of his hands with my left hand's fingers and he finally let go of my right fist.  he got scratched marks on his hand and it bled a little.  i think he did it on purpose mistreating me, it might be a racial discrimination by bending my right hand inward hard and held it bend like that i hurt my right fist as time goes by.  when i told him to let go of my right hand like several times, the security on my right side ignored me and he had a cold blank look on his face.  the security guy on the left side of me held my left wrist but didn't bend my fist inward as he walked me out the classroom by comparison.

in the school's office, the guy that bent my right fist told the principal, she's probably an assistant principal that i scratched his hand and it bled but he didn't tell her he bent and held it bent on my right fist when he made me walked out the classroom.  i don't remember if i told her that he bent my right hand/fist hard and it hurts and he didn't let go and that is why i tried to pulled his hands away from my right fist.  maybe i did tell her my side of story but i am not sure if i tell her clearly enough.  so anyway, i got suspended for several days.  maybe for 5 days, i don't remember that well.  a day later after that student (like bullied me and pushed my head down with his hands a day earlier), he went to school and he got suspended too i think.

what i am trying to say is, because that security guy that bent my right fist and held it bent like that for some seconds, it probably deformed my right fist.  so even in mid 2024 and nearly the rest of 2025, my deformed right fist gave me not 100% right grip holding my penis as i masturbate and that is probably why i still got bacteria infection on my private and still some rare time, i pee in 2 streams of urine instead of one.  speaking of peeing in 2 streams of urine, the 2 streams are usually didn't split out that far apart compare to years prior where i masturbate the wrong way.

so either around october or november of last year, i tried to correct my right fist by twisting my fist counter clockwise and twist it back up to undo the slight bent of my right fist.  so whenever i masturbated, some days later, there are still some rare moments where i still peed in 2 streams of urine a little, that some days later i tried to correct my fist again by twisting it this way or that way to unbent the right fist.

i probably corrected my right fist to 100% or nearly 100% in probably around november of last year, but in probably late december of last year, i was worry its still 100% yet, so i twist my right fist counter clockwise to correct it.  anyway, i don't remember exactly what happened in november and december of last year, but i think i pee in 1 stream of urine nearly 100% of the time, and in some rare time, it wanted to split into 2 streams again but the streams were close together apart though which is not bad.

in early january 2026, my penis felt a lot better and the bacteria infections don't act up much,  i got a lot less unstable self esteem from it.  like today, late at night or you can say way early in the morning, a few minutes before 1 a.m. today, i can feel the white spots on my dick dissolved some more, and i put on my eyeglasses as i was sitting in my computer and pulled my short down somewhat to looked at penis and i can see the white spots on my dick are much smaller.  this time for real i think, and my self esteem are a lot stable too and it didn't unstable my self-esteem much.  probably under 1 out of 10 on average by now on the severity of the bacteria infection acting up on my private area since nearly 1 a.m. this morning.  i am very happy.

i will continue writing more later.

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Happy Birthday board / Re: Happy Late 2025 Birthday Kurt Angle

« Last post by Kurt Angle on January 15, 2026, 02:19:02 PM »

Welcome back Paul!

It's been a while so its good to see you back. Thanks for the belated birthday thread it was my 50th last year so I had a few family members come over for a little party which was nice. I don't really get much for birthdays these days but I did get a bit of money being a special birthday.

I'm officially old now