Fear controls everything. Fear controls this forum. Fear of getting banned. That\'s why spamming is prohibited and nobody breaks the rule because of the FEAR.
But alas, back to this subject.
I do have many fears; some greater, and I will represent my greatest fears here for all your pleasure. Watching Exorcist last night sure brought every fear back to present, and made them as real as the movie.
( speaking of scary movies... Exorcist... G0d...
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I have likewise fears with Aaron and ViVi. I will represent them as from my point-of-view now...
- Death. I am religious, I believe in the Bible ( I\'m christian ); but I am tempted to think death very much. Almost every night I can\'t sleep, and I think death. Someones could think Christians have no problems in death, if they\'re really religious, but that\'s wrong. As I am a human being, I still suspect every word I read/hear. I think many times is Bible just made up, and there\'s nothing after death, but then I fear to doubt the Bible as if it is true, I\'m surely going to h3ll if I don\'t believe Jesus saves my soul from eternal death... It is a conflict of a life-time, and nobody ever really goes over it. If there\'s something after death, what is it? What\'s the first feeling after death, if there\'s feelings? If you\'re transported to another place, how it happens?
Questions me and Aaron couldn\'t answer even if banging our wise heads together
- H3ll. I spoke form my fear above, but let me speak to you again. This is my greatest fear, if the Bible is the truth. H3ll... am I created to belong to h3ll? Is my faith strong enough? Will God forgive my soul and perish my sins? Will God forgive me doubting bible?
The end is getting near. I can feel it, and if you believe into the message Bible brings, we\'re certainly near the doomsday...
- That all, or even one of my loved ones, would die. And this includes not just my family, but my grandfather and mother ( wich are specially close to me ), and few very special friends... And I know the time is near for my grandparents, and every night I pray more days for them. But it\'s going to happen sooner or later, and by all logic, they\'re going to pass before me ( but I never can\'t be sure )...
Of course I fear for my parents as well; in our family-tree there has been many cancers ( many lead to death ), and very much heart-problems. My parents are still quite young but there is accidents happening every day, and my father\'s new motorcycle isn\'t going to get the odds reduce...
And my little-sister is more important to me than I sometimes think. (
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- Spirits. I believe evil spirits wander around earth, looking for victims ( the Exorcist style ), and I fear darkness ( wich is another subject, but I conclude it here so this post won\'t get too long ). I fear that I will see a spirit and be scared to death. I fear that they smell my weakness and possess me... And I\'ve played spiritism... and will never play again. Go on, test it! Even the scariest horror-movie won\'t bring you the feeling spiritism does....
Whew, I think those was the worst... but I have lots of other fears I won\'t present here as this post would get too long... now did you enjoy reading my worst, and secret, fears? :)