I hate this lifecycle I'm in

[Titan]

I hate how life falls together sometimes. Going back about 3 months ago, I started having knee pain in my left knee. I've always had knee pain from time to time so I would just wrap it. It got worse and worse over the course of a couple weeks and I couldn't walk so I went to my doctor. Had an xray and MRI and was told my knee cap was out of place which would account for the massive amounts of pain I was feeling. I was then told to go to physical therapy.

All was good. My knee felt a little better and I could at least walk and work was giving me 3 days off to deal with it. Fast forward to last week. My manager of my store told me he wanted to have Fridays off so I would have to work. I was supposed to only work 9 hours but he said I now had to work open to close because he wanted his friday off. I told him I can't physically do that and warned him I'd be in massive pain. Still had to do it. Doing 12 hours then 10 hours Saturday and a small shift on sunday completely fucked it up. Went back to my therapist on monday and it was completely fucked up and couldn't walk.

Anyway, I just hate this vicious cycle I'm in. I want to quit my job which is what caused this mess in the first place (because of standing on my feet for not uncommonly 10-12 hours a day and twisting and pivoting on my knee in my studio) but I can't because I need the steady income. I can't get a job in retail, which I'm very qualified for because of my knee. I want to start my portrait business because I would only be shooting a little time during the day and sitting on my ass editing the rest of the time. But for that I need a part time job to pay my bills which I can only physically do office work or light duty stuff. I'm not really qualified for office work. I feel like I'm stuck and its doing a lot of damage to my body

Ugh. Sorry for the long post. I've been kinda depressed about this for a while. Don't know what to do :/ I'm really afraid where I'm working now is going to cause permanent damage to my knee but I can't just quit.

[GmanJoe]

You'll have to speak with your boss about your situation. Your long term health is important to you as well as your ability to work. If he can't at least compromise, you need to start sending out resumes. Show him how important you are to his business and that taking on a replacement would cost more for re-training and doesn't have half your experience.

If all else fails, kick him in the nuts and fuck his wife. Or threaten him : tell him you know a guy named Paul2 that would ass rape him without lube.

[Titan]

You'll have to speak with your boss about your situation. Your long term health is important to you as well as your ability to work. If he can't at least compromise, you need to start sending out resumes. Show him how important you are to his business and that taking on a replacement would cost more for re-training and doesn't have half your experience.

If all else fails, kick him in the nuts and fuck his wife. Or threaten him : tell him you know a guy named Paul2 that would ass rape him without lube.

Haha. He doesn't have a wife. He's married to his job. I did talk to him and my manager about it. They're worried but they're also worried about the business and I'm the lead photographer. I've been trying to find new jobs but haven't gotten any call backs yet. I talked to them and they said they would limit my work then they have me working over 40 hours a week and its getting worse.

What's funny is as I was typing this, something happened at my store and my boss called if I knew anything about it and said he was done with our franchise and closing the store (may just be saying that cause he's mad). So I may be out of a job soon anyway :/ I work for a very toxic company, lol

[Paul2]

....If all else fails, kick him in the nuts and fuck his wife. Or threaten him : tell him you know a guy named Paul2 that would ass rape him without lube.

lol.  funny gmanjoe.

[Titan]

New development. I'm totally screwed. We had a meeting tonight between our two stores about the holidays and shit. The owner of my store kept me, my assistant manager and my manager; never good when the three veterans are alone in a meeting. The first topic of discussion was my knee. He asked me what was going on and I told him I don't know. I see my doctor on Tuesday to figure out what I'm going to do. The owner said that my knee was hurting business and morale. My manager was saying that my clients were asking if I was ok and that if something was wrong with me (I've been limping around the store because being on my feet all day tightens up my knee and makes it harder to walk). He was saying it was bad for business. Then my manager was saying it was hard to explain and very awkward when customers would ask if I ws ok or what was wrong with me. They were then telling me its becoming a liability because if I got more hurt then it would be on them. I honestly lost it and broke down. I don't want to lose my job.

I broke down and told the owner everything I've kept hidden for the last couple months; that I've been looking for a job in an office where I sit down more of the day looking for lighter duty work. That my therapist and doctor said that it was most likely work related because I can be on my feet for 12 hours a day with only 30 minutes to sit down and the twisting and awkward movements of photographing when I'm shooting pictures.

I love what I do and the company I work for sucks but I need a steady paycheck to survive. I was told I have until Tuesday when I see my doctor to make a decision. I could lose my job and everything I've worked for (paying off my debt and keeping out of debt). Since I got hurt, I've been depressed and I really don't know what to do.

The worst part is is that I'm supposed to be training two new photographers (one who starts this week). What really upsets me is that they won't let me train them because they think I'll teach them bad habits related to my injury. They don't want me training new people when I have to sit down at the computer because my knee is bothering me so bad I have to sit and they don't want me teaching them bad habits. I'm getting to the point I think its all bullshit. I put 2 1/2 years here and I feel I worked very hard to get to my position as lead photographer and I've pretty much dedicated my life to my job and to be given this kind of ultimatum. I dunno. What do you guys think?

Sorry for the long post but I really don't know what to do.

[Paul2]

when you broke down and tell them you are looking for a new job.  what did your bosses say?  Is your left knee getting worse as time goes by?  i dunno, get more rested on your left knee until it heals.  even if it means getting laid off for a while.  try a different job in the meantime where you don't have to stand up all the time.

[GmanJoe]

They want to let you go before you claim Workman's Comp. Hopefully the doctor says it's work related.

[Titan]

Him and my physical therapist aren't going as far as saying its caused by work but they are saying work isn't helping. My boss gave me a lighter schedule this week which is nice. Can spend some time working on the site here, looking for work and working on my own photography.

My doctor gave me a shot of cordisol which is helping. It is getting me through work and my daily life. Its a temporary fix and it will wear off in a couple weeks but i just need to get through until we get these new photographers shooting. I'm convinced they are trying to replace me because my manager said they are going to be giving them my hours. I honestly don't care any more. I've pretty much made my decision to wind down my time there and leave amicably.

[videoholic]

I hate how life falls together sometimes. Going back about 3 months ago, I started having knee pain in my left knee. I've always had knee pain from time to time so I would just wrap it. It got worse and worse over the course of a couple weeks and I couldn't walk so I went to my doctor. Had an xray and MRI and was told my knee cap was out of place which would account for the massive amounts of pain I was feeling. I was then told to go to physical therapy.

All was good. My knee felt a little better and I could at least walk and work was giving me 3 days off to deal with it. Fast forward to last week. My manager of my store told me he wanted to have Fridays off so I would have to work. I was supposed to only work 9 hours but he said I now had to work open to close because he wanted his friday off. I told him I can't physically do that and warned him I'd be in massive pain. Still had to do it. Doing 12 hours then 10 hours Saturday and a small shift on sunday completely fucked it up. Went back to my therapist on monday and it was completely fucked up and couldn't walk.

Anyway, I just hate this vicious cycle I'm in. I want to quit my job which is what caused this mess in the first place (because of standing on my feet for not uncommonly 10-12 hours a day and twisting and pivoting on my knee in my studio) but I can't because I need the steady income. I can't get a job in retail, which I'm very qualified for because of my knee. I want to start my portrait business because I would only be shooting a little time during the day and sitting on my ass editing the rest of the time. But for that I need a part time job to pay my bills which I can only physically do office work or light duty stuff. I'm not really qualified for office work. I feel like I'm stuck and its doing a lot of damage to my body

Ugh. Sorry for the long post. I've been kinda depressed about this for a while. Don't know what to do :/ I'm really afraid where I'm working now is going to cause permanent damage to my knee but I can't just quit.

Can you sum this shit up in a sentence or two?  No time to read all that.....

[Titan]

life sucks. There. Two words for you