I cannot really follow any religion. I can\'t be plainly atheist, I can\'t be purely Christian; I don\'t see complete evidence of these things, and with my mindset, I can\'t follow them as a result.
People who support Christian ideals have told me that I should not look at it in terms of "I won\'t believe it until I see it," but rather "I\'ll see it when I believe it." They simply do not understand; I can\'t do that. Without complete proof of something like this, I feel just as awkward in those circumstances as I would be trying to believe that my pet bird is the offspring of a 6000 ton water dwelling creature. I can\'t believe in something without proof of it, it is that simple. And because no one has been able to find me legitimate proof, I am generally led to believe that many of these people only believe what they do due to years of being taught those things and surrounded by them. Until they can provide evidence I may be forced to stick to this conclusion, or else form another one. I try to remain open on this, however.
When one tries to argue that, just because a religion cannot be proven, if it can\'t be disproven, it should be followed anyway. This makes no sense; just because it hasn\'t been disproven that a 90 eyed spider lives on the moon, does that mean we should blindly believe it? It\'s a completely illogical idea in my eyes.
And often times, I am told that it\'s best to be Christian just in case the Christian teachings are true. but by that logic, shouldn\'t we all follow every religion in the world? Which is, of course, impossible.
I envy those who do have a solid belief, but I question them when they can\'t give me the proof I need to hold that same belief, basically. I\'m agnostic, and will decide on a religion as soon as I see one proven to me.
Chances are, I will take bits and pieces of other religions that make sense to me, and follow them. I may even do this in the near future.. I dislike being confused about these things.
We\'ll all find out when we die, won\'t we?
