hello soulgrind, glad to hear that you are doing good. glad to hear that people you are working with are awesome and you made a lot of new friends there. i can understand on the watching youtube too much part which can be very boring. i fractured my left palm below the thumb 4 months ago and it still doesn't heal up 100% yet. the first 70 days when i fractured my left thumb, i didn't know it was fractured. the first couple of weeks i kind of suspect it but disregard it and so i used my left thumb normally like washing dishes almost everyday and the ache doesn't go away.
i even washed and cleaned the refrigerator on March 3, and the containers are heavy as i poured water in it as i washed them. i even rubbed eucalyptus oil on my left thumb and below it for 10 days straight of the last 70 days and the ache doesn't go away. So that is when i was convinced and believed that the palm below my left thumb is fractured. so i stopped washing dishes and tried not to use my left thumb as much as possible to let it heal up 100%.
43 days as i let it heals up, i moved my left thumb again and i was hoping it was healed up 100% by then but after a couple days later, the ache came back. in those 2 days, i wash dishes normally and even played on the monkey bars, a zipline, practice martial arts like tae-kwon-do, and worked out in the park where there are workout equipments there and then the ache below my left thumb came back. it made me regret moving and using my left thumb after 43 days later when i let it heal. So obviously, 43 days of healing isn't enough.
in 12 days of the 43 days that i let it healed, i even went to a family doctor to let him permitted me to get x-ray on my left palm. i was supposed to see him 8 days later because his clients are packed in those days and i couldn't see him sooner but on the 13th day which is 12 days later that i let my palm healed, i called my doctor and my mom talked on the phone for me and the receptionist said if i wanted to go see a doctor soon, i can come in today and wait till the doctor is done with his other clients. i don't mind waiting so my mom drove me to see a doctor and i waited for about 2 hours before i get called into the clinic's room. the doctor checked my left thumb and below it and when he first touched it gracefully, it doesn't hurt but like a couple minutes later it ached. so it took like a couple minutes for it to ache. before the ach started coming back, he said he could permit me to get it x-ray if i wanted too and i nodded and said yes.
so my mom took me to this hospital and get my left palm x-ray. she took 3 x-rays of my left palm and that time i didn't think much of it but some minutes later after i got x-rays and my mom took me home on the way, i find that the way she took my x-rays is weird. the first 2 x-rays she took was on the back of my palm with one shot with my fingers together and the 2nd shot with my fingers slightly apart. the injuried was on the front of my palm, not the back so why did she took only the back side of my palm only. i remembered asking her that time if i need to put the front of my palm up and she said the x-ray goes through it so no need. and the 3rd x-ray she took of my left palm, she told me to move my left palm to the side and twist it so my left palm face up but in a weird position. at least it face up so hopefully x-ray can see it better.
Anyway, 8 days later, i received a call saying the doctor checked the x-ray pictures and said he couldn't find anything wrong with my hand or left thumb or below it or something like it. and the receptionist also suggested that if i wanted more test, i can go see a specialist. i don't want to see a specialist after i took 3 x-rays and they said nothing is wrong with my thumb. i have a feeling they are going to say its normal even if i go see a specialist about it. another weird thing is the doctor didn't check on the box of the permitted paper for my x-ray - that he didn't checked the box that said a copy of the x-ray to the CD for the patience. if he had checked that, then i would receive a copy of it and i can view it on a computer. but he didn't.
so after a total of 43 days later i let my left thumb heal, i was hoping it all healed up but it didn't heal up 100% and i was disappointed in myself for using my left thumb still kind of early but i didn't know so i shouldn't be too hard on myself. in these 4 months because of the ache below my left thumb, i couldn't practice much tae-kwon-do and other martial arts, i couldn't play much on the monkey bars or zipline, especially when i found out i cracked my bone below my left thumb, i didn't dare do those fun stuffs at the park. even at home, i couldn't play videogames because of it. there are moments i fall into depressions because of it. i wasted 4 precious months of my life unabe to do those fun stuffs. especially practicing tae-kwon-do and other martial arts mostly because i am kind of old, but not too old. i am 34 years old now but not as old as 40 years old or older, so that mean i wasted those 4 precious months and still counting of little and limited practice of martial arts. i am afraid by the time i reach 40 years old, i worry that i might not be able to improve on my tae-kwon-do and other martial arts because i worry at that age and later is a bit too old to get any improvement on these martial arts.
during those 4 months, my family and other probably didn't believe that i fractured my palm below my left thumb and i struggled to prove to them but i explained to them in very good detail that i am not pretending that the bone below my left thumb is fractured because it doesn't benefit me much at all because it only wasted my precious time of not being able to practice tae-kwon-do and other martial arts fully. sure i don't have to wash dishes if my palm is fractured but i rather wash dishes if it heal up 100% or not fractured just so i have something to do to past time and it makes me feel good after i finish washing dishes to see the sink is neat and tidy. not only that but i couldn't play videogames either to past time so it doesn't really benefit me if i pretend which proof that i didn't pretend.
sorry for my long story but i have to let it out to proof my innocence. i am not sure how long it will take for it to heal up 100% but i worry i have to restart it again worry that it might take another 2 months of healing for it to heal up 100%. during the healing process, i could feel my left palm heal up as i could feel a cool liquid traveling inside it as it in the process of mending it. then there are time it felt like a soothing warm liquid healing inside. maybe when i no longer felt the liquid inside healing up, it might means its 100% heal up. but i might not move it for like another 5 days just to be sure. i worry i have to redo this again and it might take 2 months for it to heal up and i will give it another 5 days just to be sure. but hopefully it won't take 2 months but hopefully in just another couple of weeks or so. but i will see.
