I did something awful Today...

I went to the mall to go hang out with some friends and we ended up leaving the mall and I got drunk as a skunk..  Afterwards I came back to the mall and I was basically in my own world..  Then my boyfriend came and picked me up and when he did he just heard that his cousin was like dieing... So we went to the hospital to see him and we basically watched him die.. I felt awful because I started crying makin the situation worse..  Then he introduced me to his mother and I controlled myself long enough to make myself presentable...

I feel awful for the state I was in for such an occasion  I think that is one of the lowest things you can do.. He was a lil mad at me afterwards but then he said he forgave me... But somehow I just don\'t believe him and because of this I cannot sleep at all  

I just know that I will never get high or drunk ever again..  This made me realize how stupid a person is when they are drunk..

Dont feel bad b/c of that.

1. He has no right to be mad at you b/c of that. You did that BEFORE you knew of the situation..not after.

2. What you do in your time is your business..not his families, so dont worry about that. It certainly helps, but they dont have to like you. If your BF has a problem with you drinkin, he should be a man and bring it up with you instead of using this as an excuse IF he is going to do so.

3. Be yer lovable self bebe..you always have me

I dont have a problem with drinking, but I do have a problem with people getting so drunk that they fully make asses of themselves.

Not saying you did this though. Just make sure you don\'t do it again.

Originally posted by luckee
Dont feel bad b/c of that. 3. Be yer lovable self bebe..you always have me

Thanks for the offer

I honestly did make an ass of myself.. I just hope that he will forgive me for it..  I was still spinning when  I came home earlier but I finally sobered up... All this shit it like runnin through my mind right now.... and I have to be up for school in like 2 hours

It is really bothering me because I am trying to go over in my head what went on today and alot of it is a blur to me...  I hate not being able to remember stuff.  It is very frustraiting..

I might say what I say b/c I dont mind doing that. I get drunk off my ass weekly, but as of my teen years, I have been able to control my emotions to date.

Im all for doing whatever you want to do, whether it is drinking again or never again.

After thinking about this a little more, I would have just told him that you were not up to this right now and gone home to sober up abit. Then I would have gone to the hospital.

You say you were acting like an ass, please explain.

Kepp yer head up, it could always be worse!!

Well I was cryin for no reason and I was more upset at the hospital than he was and I had no reason to be because I had no idea what was goin on...  When we got in the car I was yellin at him because he yelled at me for getting drunk and I was all like "Look who\'s talkin all you do is deal and smoke and if you really wanted to better yourself you would get a ****in job blah blah blah"..  So he got pissed about that.  

I would have gone home too if I had known we were going to the hospital.  I didn\'t know where we were goin to we were half way there

I wish I could turn back time and never have gotten that way !

hey, do you have AIM? wanna talk? I will be awake for a while.

I\'m mad that I am finally awake and your ass is gone ^_^

My advice would be to take his word for it. He forgave you and that\'s the best thing he could have done under cercumsrances. I\'ve been through moments similar to yours. It sucks but at the same time you have to lift your head up and be thankfull for what you have.

Originally posted by Starr
I just know that I will never get high or drunk ever again..  

Don\'t....ever..... say that.


Don\'t.

[Bobs_Hardware]

You\'re only 16, you shouldn\'t even be drinking.

And he\'s a dick for dealing drugs.

I have to agree with Bob - 16 and drinking is pretty bad.  Sure most people underage drink every so often, but drinking on a Sunday and going to the mall??? WTF?  I don\'t think I was ever that bored when I was that age.

[Kurt Angle]

Don\'t pay attention to him, dealing and taking drugs is far worse than anything you have done.

Drinking is lame and I could see nothing wrong with him being pissed because I know I\'ve been mad when someone couldn\'t control themselves because  they thought it was cool to drink.  Atleast you realized you did something wrong though.  And Shit happens, but if you do it again shame on you.

Originally posted by Bozco
Drinking is lame

Eh... I agree that drinking on a Sunday and going to the mall (or was it drinking in the mall?) is lame, but having a fun night out and drinking with your friends isn\'t lame.