Originally posted by GmanJoe
I hope things work out for you. Is it other people that make conditions difficult for you?
here goes my long story.
I suffer from schizophrenia and sinus problem. Schizophrenia and sinus drove my brain nuts. It make me things of scary things and it make me useless. Think of it like i am a retard due to part of my brain is malfunction. I don\'t think anybody make conditions bad for me now. Except some people are a little pushy saying why don\'t get a job or go to school.
The truth to that matter is i can\'t. I can\'t drive because i can\'t concentrate or think clearly and calmy. Schizophrenia is a very serious problem dude. Haven\'t got a driver driver or take any driving classes. At this age, i should be in college and drive around places i wanted to go and enjoy my life.
When i was little around 10 years old or so, a kid bully me because i am vulnerable and i didn\'t respect myself. This guy pulled my left ear so hard, he dragged me as he pulled. The pulled was so hard that it stretch the left scalp of my head. Think of it like a bubble gum stick that you stretch. That is what he injury is like. It left a stretch mark scar on my head.
Over the years, i keep getting headaches from it. The scar swell so bad that my brain is malfunction. As if someone is squeezing my head, it hurt so bad that i can\'t concentrate and i try to hide it. I wasn\'t sure if the scar causes the problem and i was in denial. So, from bad to worst my headache get.
The headache gets in my way from doing well in school. The scar make me depress, sad, paranoid, weak, and in pain, etc...
Just last year, i have three surgeries to remove the scar on my head and stitch back the scalp.
Why 3 surgeries? well the first surgery, the doctor didn\'t completely remove the scar, so i had a second, and the 3rd and hopefully the last once. After each surgery, my headache lessen dramatically and i feel more alive. Before that, i feel like a zombie.
since i didn\'t work so i don\'t have insurance, my mom paid for the surgery. She paid a total of $900 for surgery on my head and nostril.
Now, i feel much better but not completely normal. I been waiting for me to get better so i can be a productive citizen and finish the god damn remaining 1 sememster class that i failed during 2002.