7 Stages of grief:
(1) Shock or Disbelief that the loss has occured.
(2) Denial is the stage in which the person refuses to accept the loss has occured.
(3) In the Bargaining stage, the person attempts to reconcile the loss by making deals with other people, sometimes also with Diety.
(4) Guilt is marked by statements of "if only I had done/been . . . ".
(5) Anger is a natural stage everyone must pass. Anger may be directed toward the loss, the person lost, or even Diety.
(6) Depression is a stage that comes and goes throughout the grief process. Resignation at the end of the depression indicates that the truth of the loss has been accepted and the person is ready to move on.
(7) Acceptance and Hope means that you understand your life will never be the same but it will go on with meaning and hope.
Early stage 1 & 2, with some stage 5. Feeling all of what you are feeling (not crying yet), anger is normal. A close family member has shocked your family and friends, causing new turmoil and stress in your life. Acceptance will take a while, but talking about it, especially to family who are suffering the same way will help a lot.
I\'m sorry to hear about your families loss.