"N" word is sprayed in womens home....

[Paul2]

oh yeah, unlike other people who when got discriminated, they deal with the problem immediately instead of keeping it inside.

You see I wasn\'t emotionally stable before I came to that school, so when I got discriminated by that teacher, I stuff my anger inside thinking it will go away.  I didn\'t realize i was still upset the next day I see him again in class.  and still upset me from time to time.  I realized mostly because i didn\'t deal with it like other people had.

I think that if I got the courage to deal with it by yelling at him explaining to him of what he did and if he apologize and admit of what he did was wrong.  I would let go.  And also, that\'s a sign that I shouldn\'t be in that school, or especially in that classroom anymore.  I don\'t want to endure it again going to that classroom.  I should quit that school or best don\'t go to school anymore until I am emotionally stable to deal with real world.  Oh yeah, beside being emotionally unstable, I also have poor self esteem too.  That\'s another reason why I didn\'t do anything about it when he did something mean to me because I don\'t like myself either.

The signs are clear that he\'s discouraging me to go that school.

[clips]

"Not only that, but he crossed off 90 and gave this girl 33/100 because she didn\'t turnitin.com."


^^^Well lookin\' at this, isn\'t 33 just as bad as receiving a zero?...last i remember anything lower than a 60 is an "F".....she may have gotten a 100 but because she didn\'t turn it in on the net, she eventually received a zero also...and paul i\'m with you on the racism thing, people who are racist even teachers won\'t come right out and say it, but you sense it in their mannerisms and body language.

But i kinda agree with viper in the sense that this guy just might be an a**hole...and i\'m no psychiatrist...but reading your posts gives me the feeling that you really have emotional problems goin\' on. And maybe...just maybe you\'re being a tad sensitive when people are bein\' mean to you,...it could very well be that this guy is a racist, but the fact that he also gave that girl a 33 even when she had a 100 seems like he\'s just bein\' hard on everybody, because again 33 to me also constitutes a zero in my book.

[Paul2]

yep, 33 out of 100 is still an F.  But that\'s not really the point.  The point was that he written an explanation, "needs to turnitin.com" on that paper." on why she got 33 out of 100 instead of 90/100.

On both of my papers, he wrote 70s out of 100s but the on grade sheet they were 0s.

Look it at this way, so you can understand why I am upset.  Why didn\'t he crossed off the 70s and put 0s with an explanation why I got 0s.  Why on other students paper, he written an explanation on their papers why they got the lesser score that they did.  These students had been in his class since 1st semester.

I had no idea why my papers were graded 70s but the grade sheet were graded 0s until I approached him and asked him, and his answered was I need to turnitin.com.  that was the first time I heard of turnitin.com and the first time he told me about it.  Again, after I questioned him is when he told me about that website.  But he said that he told me before...

he was trying to do a cover-up by lying that he told me before.  I thought it was an accident, so I accept his lied.  So, i accept his false accusation of blaming it on me.

I do have emotional problems going on, and I thought I can bare it, but I couldn\'t.  See, if somebody did something mean to you for instance, you deal with it immediately so you can get it out of the way.  I am saying for instance, even if you kept it inside when somebody did something mean to you.  Very likely is that you can put up with it and let it go more easily and you move on.  Mostly because you are emotionally and mentally stable to do so.

I thought I could put up with it and move on.  I was wrong.  It\'s very unbearable and it does causes some psychological damages to me.  There are some other things that he did that I didn\'t mentioned that really freak me out, and upset me at the same time and I endured them too and didn\'t do anything back to get it out of the way.

You know what, had I deal with it, like just simply talking it out to somebody like a student or my mom or confront him about it at that time, and that\'s all I really need.  Then i can let it go and move on.  Hopefully.

If everyone else in the class besides you and one girl used turnitin.com for your papers he had to have announced it to the class at some point and I can almost guarantee that it was on the syllabus.  If it wasn\'t, you\'d have grounds for appeal to get your grades back, however I highly doubt thats the case.  Profs can be assholes, and a lot would rather be doing their studies than teach, but 99.999% of them aren\'t going to be racist and him not offering an explanation about why he marked it as a 0 when it was announced in class/in the syllabus does not constitute as being racist.

//Didn\'t bother to read the entire story.  I hope I made an ass of myself, otherwise, Paul, please stop throwing the race card out.

[Jumpman]

I think I could post someone that would make him go over the edge but I wont.

Cause Im a nice guy.

[Paul2]

If everyone else in the class besides you and one girl used turnitin.com for your papers he had to have announced it to the class at some point and I can almost guarantee that it was on the syllabus.  If it wasn\'t, you\'d have grounds for appeal to get your grades back, however I highly doubt thats the case.  Profs can be assholes, and a lot would rather be doing their studies than teach, but 99.999% of them aren\'t going to be racist and him not offering an explanation about why he marked it as a 0 when it was announced in class/in the syllabus does not constitute as being racist.

//Didn\'t bother to read the entire story.  I hope I made an ass of myself, otherwise, Paul, please stop throwing the race card out.

Not sure I am understanding entirely, but I do agree with you that about 99% of time that I encounter people, they aren\'t racists.  It\'s very rare, and quite rare nowadays.  Again, this teacher that I encounter is semi-racist.  Not 100% but semi.  Only this individual, not all the teachers or the students or any other people.  Some people are superficial, but they aren\'t mean to me, except this one teacher...

I think I could post someone that would make him go over the edge but I wont.

Cause Im a nice guy.

When were you a nice guy?  Thinking too highly of yourself?

[Viper_Fujax]

hey...what\'s a good ebonic word for "money"..especially one thatd be funny if a white person said it...

long, uninteresting story, but i need one...