OK I\'m not drunk anymore so here\'s the REAL story!

By the way I was very drunk last night. It took me about 15 minutes to type out 5 lines but anyway...

I broke down and called her, trying to get her back like a damn fool. And to tell you the truth I could have got her back. She is really much more confused than I thought. She really has no idea what she is doing right now.


Basically she told, just like I was one of her friends, about all the guys she\'s having sex with and how great it is. She Fu****g KNEW how bad it would hurt me and she did it anyway. She would mix little things in like "i really miss you" or "its so good to hear your voice"

wtf?!

basically I have realized that now, no matter what I can never take her back anyway. her life now consists of going to bars, getting drunk, and finding guys who will spend money on her if she will have sex with them. Her parents are going absolutly crazy about this and she just tells them to leave her alone cause its her life.

I don\'t want a unintelligent, shallow, worthless, not a single original thought in her body, follower like her anymore. She is dead to me.

I have blocked her e-mail address and i will try to forget her phone # as soon as possible.

I hope for her sake that she knows what she is doing, though I doubt it, because if she ever, EVER, tries to contact me again in the hopes of working it out, she is going to be very upset.

I deserve better than her. I KNOW I do.

Don\'t get me wrong everybody. I am in the absolute worst pain of my life. The thought of her with other guys completely KILLS me. But there is nothing I can do anymore.

Last week I was looking at this like "how am I gonna get through this untill she comes back" but now I am looking at this like "how am I gonna tell her to go screw herself when she wants to come back"

I feel for ya.  If you want to make sure you don\'t call her in a drunken stupor again, call your phone company and ask them to block her number from your house... then you can only call her through an operator - so you won\'t do it drunk.  

It\'s terrible to hear about a nice girl going down that kind of path, everybody experiments (well, most of us) for a while, but usually once we start looking for someone \'real\' that kind of thing doesn\'t happen.

That is really strange,i was going to start a thread today asking"How are you getting on Lucas Biggins"i was thinking for quiet a while today how you must have been getting on.
I know it is easy to  say but just forget her,you dont want some one like her,and i think we can all see that you desever better,that you really have something to give someone that is going to apprecoate you.
And the best way to get her to feel **** ,and realise she has made a big mistake,with letting you go is to
let her see that you are getting on with your life,without her,that will get to her more then anything you can say to her.
And when you feel like brakeing down agian,just come on to the forum,and speak to people on hear,we will help you.
All i can say is good luck,but you dont need good luck,because you have already taken the biggest step,reliasing what she is like,and that you dont need her,and that you are going to make it on your own: )

[nO-One]

Damn man I feel for you.

You situation just has to suck like hell.

Anyhoo it\'s good that you\'re carrying on and trying to forget her.And you\'ll always have this place to blow off steam

Thanks everyone. This really is the hardest, most painful thing I have ever had to face. But I am no longer confused. She can live her life any way she wants. But if she ever and I mean EVER expects me to show her any respect she has another think coming.

As far as I\'m concered this is now un-fixable.

She is now worthless to me as a friend and as a girlfriend.

Lucas, i had no idea things were so bad. i havn\'t heard from you in a while. I\'m saddened by your loss and
hope that you can find something good out of this situation. You can rely on us to keep you proped up.
Women sometimes come and go, Just keep going on with what you need to do and you will find
someone who will love you for who you are. Were here for you bro\'.

You\'re the man Luke, and you\'re right, you do deserve a lot better. I remember from a few months ago when your girlfriend left you for a week or so to \'find herself\' and you were a wreck without her and how you felt she was \'the one\' - with so many guys who aren\'t prepared to commit and who aren\'t honest with their feelings she should have realized then that SHE had something special in YOU. Unfortunately, she screwed it up for herself and you can now move onto someone who\'ll appreciate you more.

Way to go Luke, we\'re all proud of you and we\'re all here if you need us but I think you\'re going to be just fine.

God damn you guys tday has been so hard.

Its like I still love her and I still have this stupid fantasy that we will get back together. But I know that I can never take her back.

I\'m really stuggling with this.

God I hope she knows what she is doing here. I hope she never calls me again cause I honestly don\'t know how I will react to her now. All I know is that I have lost ALL the respect for her I ever had.

The only way I can describe how I feel is to compare it to this.

Imagine being a parent and watching you child die. Imagine the pain you would feel if your child had become addicted to crack or something and you had to watch them die right before your eyes.

That is exactly how I feel today. Like I am watching her die to me.

Well Luke, all I can say is good for you for moving on and the best of luck to you. I know it must be hard, I know that you probably are kinda screwed up about what to do. But just remember that you DO deserve better than that, never forget it.
And in time you\'ll get over it. Just try to move on and don\'t look back.

I can\'t say that I\'ve ever had a problem like that before, but I do know that whenever I\'ve had a big problem this board has helped me. When I come online and start to skim through the threads and talk with me online "friends", I kind of forget about all my troubles.
I hope that we have been able to help you in the same way.

Just hang in there buddy.

[nO-One]

I\'m curious about her parents,you said before that they were far from happy about the way she\'s acting.
Do they talk to you at all,or do they not care about you,even blame you for their daughters actions?

let me put it this way NO-ONE.

Her parents want her to marry me. her parents absolutly LOVE me. They are more upset about this than I am because they knew how good she had it with me. they told me that they considered me thier son. and it is a huge understatment to say that they are upset about this.


To answer your question it is just the opposite. They feel that she is doing these things because she doesnt have me around to ground her anymore.

[nO-One]

OK it\'s not one of those situation where it\'s you against the whole family.

Anyhoo,best wishes to you and her family,she seems to be causing alot of trouble.

Originally posted by nO-One
she seems to be causing alot of trouble.

man, you dont know, her parents are going absolutly crazy because of this. her dad is almost alienating her because of this and you know what she says?

"what does he know?"

wtf?

how can you say that about your father that has loved and cared for you your whole life?

well sorry about whats all happening lucas. but i think that girl is just looking for a lot of attention. or maybe she is just trying something new...that she will probably regret. Well good luck on whatever choice u come up with about her.