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« Last post by Paul2 on June 04, 2026, 06:26:14 AM »
since i couldn't sleep yet today, might as well post my 5 years martial arts practice and other discoveries now.
- On oct 26, 2025, i discovered that i can do some voice acting, so i tried to practice my voice acting hoping i can improve upon it. i copied other people's voice acting on the movie mortal kombat annihilation and even the first mortal kombat movie too. i also copied other voice acting that i seen on youtube during advertisements time. overall, i improved on my voice acting a little bit day by day.
- on probably somewhere around late 2025 either that or early 2026, i stop practicing martial arts because on the day when its time for me do practice move #8, i got nervous and i get panic practicing it doing the front flip with one hand. i practiced it one session per week and a total of 10 times per a week. even after i finished practicing it for the day, every once in a while, i kept thinking about it like everyday worry that 1 week is up to practice it. since the compass and balance on the left side of my head is broken, it makes me afraid of height and practicing move #8 which is the front flip with one hand in hoping one day i can do it hand free worry me as i flip forward in the air and the height and balance of it scares me. so i stop practicing it since either late 2025 or early 2026.
- on somewhere around February 2026 after over a month or 2 or so of not practicing any martial arts, i decided to practice and focus on move #1 instead and practice move #1 only everyday in hoping i can improve upon it. on late February, i didn't practice it much because it was raining on most days and on March 3, 2026, i finally practice it again almost everyday. starting on March 5, i increase the amount of time i practice it from 7 sets, 3 times each set which total 21 times to 10 sets which total 30 times per a day. there are days where i didn't practice it at all because i didn't get enough sleep or wasn't able to sleep that day.
on late may 2026, maybe either may 22 or may 24, 2026, i increase practicing it to one more extra set, so from 10 sets to 11 sets which total 33 times starting on that time. on june 1 and june 2, i didn't practicing it at all because i didn't get enough sleep and on june 2, i did get a good amount of sleep but not enough to make up for it so i felt tired and didn't bother practicing it until june 3 which is yesterday where i got a really good amount of sleep (around 11 hours and 30 minutes and it somewhat make up for june 1 where i only got 1 hour of sleep on that day. on june 3rd, i also got about 30 minutes of nap later after i got home from martial arts practice. i am still about 3 hours short of sleep if combined with june 1 where i only got 1 hour of sleep and total like 12 hours short of sleep if combined with some days where i didn't get enough sleep from 1 to 2 weeks prior. so far, i still haven't gotten to intermediate level yet on this move but there are moments where i am there already.
-on probably jan 12, 2026, i changed the way i walked again in hoping to get rid of the cracks on the sole of my feet, especially my heels and i still get cracked on the sole of my feet. i changed it again on jan 31, and i still get cracks there. on late april 2026, i changed the way i walked again and the ache and pain on the sole of my feet, especially my heels, i tried walking differently and found the bending my knees a little and lifting up my feet a little to somewhat as i walk mostly rid of the ache and pain on my heels. so that might means that is close to my natural gay walk. especially this past nearly 6 years and 5 months of trying to figure my natural gay walk, its straighten my spine, especially my lower back's spine where it was pushed inward and very curvy from the evil chiropractic that i got from late 2006. so far today, my lower spine is a lot straighter this past nearly 6 years and 5 months as i changed the way i walk. if included 1ish month of changing the way i walk back in nov 30, 2017 to late dec or jan. 2018 where my spine first started to straighten, it would have been about 6 1/2 years now total. surprise it took that long and my lower spine is still not 100% straighten yet i think. anyway, i used to think my natural gay walk looks more like how a straight person should walk but late april 2026, changing the way i walk and bending my knees a little where i get less pain on the sole of my feet as i walk made me believe that my natural gay walk is not similar to how a straight person walk but more like a little gay walk. to this day, i still haven't figure out 100% yet on how to walk naturally to get rid the cracks on the sole of my feet.
- on late april 2026, i sliced the lumps on the pimple scars on the right side of my nose with my fingernail to get rid of the lump scars of where the mole is. some days later, the lumps is flatter as it healed up. so on may 12, i sliced some more area of the lumps scar on the right side of my nose and like 3 days later, i can see its flatter as it healed up. on may 24, 2026, i sliced the lump scars on where the mole is with my finger and 1 1/2 day later, it swollen it as it was in healing process and i was worry that it won't flatten the lumps on my nose. another 1 1/2 day later, finally i can see its flatten somewhat this time around. about 2 1/2 more days later, as it mostly healed up, i can see the lumps on where the mole on the right side of my nose is flatter, like about 50% to 60% flatter this time around.
on early to mid may 2026 where i noticed it got flatter, i realize that because back in either mid or later 1999 where i got pimples on my nose, i didn't pop it because my mom gave me bad advices like months to a year or 2 prior where she told me to let the pimple ripe before popping it. so i let it ripe on my nose and it spread on and around my nose and the pimples also gotten bigger and when i popped it, it hurts so i teared it off with my fingers and by doing that, i got lumps and pimple scars on my nose after it healed up. not long after i got the lump scars on my nose, i tried to tear it off by ripping it with my fingernails, and the lump pimple scars grew back. its not until late april 2026 where i tried to sliced it with my fingernails, and about 10 days later, i realized slicing it with my fingernails should get rid of the lump pimple scars as it healed up instead of tearing/ripping it off. on mid 2004, i realize popping the pimples when it was pop able and small not only do i not get any pain but i don't get any scars from it instead of letting it ripe where it grew big and spread. i remember in mid 1999 before school was over for summer vacation, a student gave me a very good advice why don't i just pop it (when it was pop able) or something like that when i got pimples on my nose and possibly on my face too. it took me 5 years later to realize he gave me a very good and right advice there. it took me nearly 27 years to discover on how to get rid of the lumps and scars on my nose by just slicing and scratching it instead of tearing/ripping it.
so on june 8 this year, i plan on slicing the pimple scars lump around and possibly slice on where the black dot mole is on the right side of my nose in hoping to get rid of the lump completely after it heal up and left the black dot mole intact. maybe scratch and slice the lumps scars on the left side of my nose too about 2 weeks afterward after i slice and scratch the right side of my nose.
-on may 14, i think i was able to shake my hip counter clockwise fluidly starting on this day. i usually practice my dance exercises everyday but since late april if i remember correctly, i didn't practice it every day because of not getting enough sleeps on and off on some days. its been like 2ish to 4ish years already since i practice my dance exercises.
-on may 17, i think i finally figure out on how to masturbate 100% correctly this time around. somewhere around afternoon on this day, i watched a little of live gay webcam site of 2 gay guys having sex. and one of the guys masturbate with his hand and i paid attention on how he masturbate and that was when i realized that i don't need to straighten the palm of my hand whenever i masturbate. i can let it naturally tilt to the right side as i masturbate because one of the 2 guys having sex masturbate with his palm tilted to the side and now that i think about it, his was tilted to the left though. so anyway, like a couple hours later as i watched black brazillian men porn as i masturbate, starting on this day, i let my right hand palm tilted to the right naturally as i masturbate and another couple hours or so later that day after i cum from masturbation, i can feel my penis felt healthier. so i am very sure this time around i masturbate 100% correctly. usually i watched white and latin men who are mixed with white gay porn because i mostly sleep on the right side. it take as long as 1 month sleeping a little bit to little on the left side to get blood and oxygen flow to the left side of my head to find black men attractive again. sometimes it take longer than that, like as long as nearly 2 months, sometimes sooner than that like as soon as 1 to 2 weeks depending on how long and frequent do i sleep on the left side. but that is a different story.
i don't remember exactly when but maybe some years later after i find asian men attractive, i realized i have to sleep on the left side with my head titled partway like 3/4th tilted like sleeping on a hammock or on the couch with the cushion on the couch's arm to let the blood and oxygen flow to 1/4th way on the left side of my head. because when i sleep on the left side, i let my head rested straight on the left side on the pillow instead of 3/4th way tilted and i no longer find asian men attractive but only black men. that lead me to believe that on the left most part of my brain is where i find black men attractive, 1/4th from the left side of my brain is where i find asian men attractive. 1/4 from the right side is where i find latin men and any men who are mixed with white attractive and all the way to the right side of my brain is where i find white men attractive.
so since may 17, whenever i go pee, its pretty much 100% 1 stream of pee instead of 2 streams so that mean i probably masturbate 100% correctly. on probably may 25, i got confused and probably masturbate with my right hand tilted to the left side and is still feel optimal i think. but it probably best to let it titled to the right side as i masturbate with my right hand. on may 31, i can see the stream of pee almost wanted to split in 2 but its still like 98% to 99% 1 stream of pee though. but i believe i masturbate pretty 100% correctly letting my right hand tilted to the right as i masturbate. sometimes, i masturbate once a day and other times, i masturbate once every 2 or 3 days or so. i can feel my penis and my self-esteem feel more stable most of the time since may 17 though which is great news. so that must have meant one of the security guys that bended my right fist back in late 1999 didn't deformed/warped my right hand after all i think.
also, on april 22, on my 42nd birthday, i finally shaved my private area. its been like 7 months since i last shaved. since march of this year after about 6 months of not shaving and of not plucking off hair grow on my penis, my self-esteem feel somewhat stable. it made me realize not to pluck the hair grows on foreskin of my penis where the white spotted dick are. i believe plucking the hair grows on the spotted dick where and around my foreskin are will worsen the spotted bacteria infection on my dick. rather shave it instead so air can flow through there and in hoping kill the spotted infection on my penis area.
-on may 20, starting on this day, i think i jumped a bit higher as i did jumping jacks from dance exercises. maybe like 1 to 2 inches higher is what i believe.
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